Day 5

 Welcome to my new life. Just call me urchingirl, as in street urchin. If you see that girl in the brown leather jacket, toting her heavy laptop bag back and forth through Williamsburg, with a furrowed brow, greasy scowl on her face, eyes lowered to the ground...that's me. Just trying to keep busy, keep my head up, and stay around friends but that's not always possible. Thank god for cigarettes, cheap coffee and cafes with patios and free wifi. These are my new friends. The apartment search seems futile as I'm determined to move back to Williamsburg, my constant security blanket. My home since I left home to move to this crazy city. My very own Cheers, where everybody really does know my name. Just walking down the street with genuine smiles and friendly waves. It is comforting in a way. I've spoken to my mother more in the past four days than I have in the past four months. My one source of true unconditional love. I have been surrounded by friends thus far, but today starts the dealing with this on my own phase. It's ok though. Everything is happening as I am ready for it. I'm still no where near fine. Don't expect to be for quite some time.